30 Minutes Before Another Year Comes (2020)

Lot of things happened this year that I never planned last year, things that I never expected, most of it are like are painful and most of it are great memories that I can think of. There are people I stopped interacting with coz’ of the fact that I can’t take their shits no more and I’m glad that there…

Same Time, Same Place, Same Room, Same People But Different Clothes

Class 22 of Ingram Micro New Hire Foundations TrainingPhoto Source: Alfred Von David I woke up around 3 am and got this very weird feeling that I haven’t experienced for such a very long time, “Aha! It feels like a back to school day, except that mom’s not there to nag (a typical setting for most Filipino kids)” hahaha! It’s…

Lhak What Sah Episode 4 – Lucban Foodtrip Episode

Just a very short documentation of insane things out of nowhere, something to let my thought fly and my imaginations turn close to reality. Making fun of my friends and stupid conversations are one of the few things that I love to do and I love to laugh as long as they're laughing. Just laugh and let the cam rolling,…

The Tugtugan Project Episode 7

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ongBMgHkgY https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F0KN-sR_HwE https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H01qrH4rCz0 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7s3faZF5zQU https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pzl3Z8PIuhM

The Navy Pier

A screenshot of the About pop-up I’m so confused about what decision to make, I’m looking for a sign to make myself feel better and so I randomly browsed the bible and it showed something like this, “When the king of Egypt was told that the people had fled, Pharaoh and his officials changed their minds about them and said,…

Shopping For A Job

Just a nice folder where to organize your documents, others don't provide that. After days of thinking of whether to leave or not and hoping to find a company that matches, or almost matches my expectation, my friend shared that she got a friend who works at a very nice company that can give us a nice offer. My pessimist…

The Sky that I Used To Gaze

Days are passing by like dried leaves dropping from a tree that used to be so green, a tree that once full of life where fruits are so tasty and full of flavors. My memory of sky that once so blue starts to fade its hue and awaits for gray to fill up the whole space as I prep up…

And So I Opened The Gate

I’ve just remembered the story about the frog who stayed inside the pan of warm water on top of the stove where the frog enjoyed it because it’s warm and relaxing that he was so complacent that he can just jump out anytime and can find another warm place if he wants to since he got the right skills to…

Finding For Areas Where to Smoke

Ever since Executive Order No. 26 was implemented as of May 16, 2017, looking for a place where to smoke suddenly got so tight that addiction to nicotine was so hard as hell. Thinking twice before lighting a stick of cigarette is a big thing especially if you're in a place where there are not much of people around; thoughts…

The Tugtugan Project Episode 4 – A Kit Serra Birthday Episode(SD Quality Version)

https://youtu.be/YAw91QgzjY0 It took me a while to finish and upload this video due to things like the file size(9 GB to 10 GB approximately) is too big for me to upload since I'm just using a limited data promo from a network and YouTube stops responding whenever I try to upload a huge file to their server. I managed a…

A Drinking Straw

I started working in this company for about 5 years and 4 months ago and it is one of the happiest things that happened to me since this is the first BPO industry that accepted even though I have some problem with my communication skills where I stutter too much and I'm having trouble making a point in a single…

The Tugtugan Project Episode 6 – Bucket Ba – La Union Episode

https://youtu.be/tNFDGYTABGo

The Tugtugan Project Episode 5.8 – Young Dumb and Broke

https://youtu.be/6Wd7Ug085HM

The Tugtugan Project Episode 5.6 – Change of Heart

https://youtu.be/gBLgOfLrxI0

The Tugtugan Project Episode 5.5 – Zombie

https://youtu.be/DXoWGNB3VgI

The Tugtugan Project Episode 5.4 – Buwan

https://youtu.be/mubuYYEkpzs

The Tugtugan Project Episode 5.3 – Sunday Morning

https://youtu.be/007u58r6IT0

The Tugtugan Project Episode 5.2 – The Only Exception

https://youtu.be/8cl1w3Cc--8

The Tugtugan Project Episode 5.1 – Terrified

https://youtu.be/1B56duAzJOI

The Tugtugan Project – The Craziest Intro(Director’s Cut Daw)

https://youtu.be/EKOLqim87H0

Assassin’s Creed Pirates

Assassin's Creed: Pirates is a spin-off game for smartphones and tablets developed by Ubisoft Paris. The game follows the pirate Alonzo Batilla, who holds the key to finding the treasure of the French pirate La Buse. The game focuses on naval combat and is set in the early 18th century, similar to Assassin's Creed IV: Black Flag. Updates Since its…

Free Alternative Photo Editing Solutions Without Downloading and Installing a Software

Working on a computer without any photo editing tool aside from the epic "paint" is one of the most difficult things to do when your task requires you to do some basic photo manipulation. It doubles the time doing something that should be done in just a few minutes and considering the fact that you need to exert more effort…

The Tugtugan Project – After Jam Cuts

https://youtu.be/VGWbqfTNXIY

The Tugtugan Project Episode 4 – Kit Serra Birthday Episode Trailer

https://youtu.be/-B7uq3FqiuM

@Silver Chords Studio - Angono Rizal

A System Restore

My laptop crashed due to an unstable graphics card driver update yesterday and taught me a lesson to always create restore point before taking any major update in my system, a very basic part of the process that I always ignore to do due to a fact that I trusted the vendor or the manufacturer too much because of its…

The Tugtugan Project Episode 3 – Mic Stand na Made in Italy(Itali mo bebe)

https://youtu.be/L_9-bGWgYyo Just an amazing way how to spend Thanksgiving and learn more about symphonic metal music that day, Last Ride of The Day by Nightwish and Kahit Ayaw Mo Na by This Band made the day so rock n roll, a perfect balance of heavy and soft with 2 vocals that nailed it so perfect and made me feel that…

A sound of its props gets me high as the light blinks fast as my heart does. Just things I wished that I’ve done before and weird kind of rush that I’m looking for. It’s cheap but it will teach me somehow and it goes like “learn how to handle crappy ones to deserve handling the greater ones”.

The Lhak What Sah

Just started a page just for fun, trying to be creative somehow in multimedia editing. So basic and fun(Though it was hell, coz it’s painful.) but we just want to mess things around, expressing and letting the small kid that we were trapped inside our adult body, a state of mind often judged by the society, but we still, all…

Hood Up

https://youtu.be/UKtIxVyhKUs

The Tugtugan Project

https://youtu.be/KGvB9gvWePg Most people go to the gym to enhance their physical side of their entire entity, others go to the church for their soul, and some spends to much time in the bar to enhance their state of being happy. Some extend their range and spends more on traveling; it gives them peace and extends their circle of friends and…

The Tugtugan Project Episode 2 – A Joel Andrew Tribute

https://youtu.be/KGvB9gvWePg

"The key to growth is the introduction of higher dimensions of consciousness into our awareness." -Lao Tzu

Project MCM

[gallery size="full" ids="36,37"] Just 2 evolutions of site logos, can’t believe that we’re still surviving and the flame is still burning. Yes we are moving slow but, we’re sure about every decision and we will face anything that might go wrong. All you need is the right leader to push those decisions and I’m lucky to meet one, such a…

The Tugtugan Project – Isang Bagsak

https://youtu.be/XKCN7jUaT9A My Heart by Paramore Cover Another video of how the usual jams spiced up with a powerful voice; another day of saying “Ahh I never saw it coming!”. The video quality is not that great but who cares… the audio nailed it and I’m hoping to see more of these happens in our future jams(most of it happens every…

Test jam with my high school bandmate, originally 6 trimmed down to 2, and I can still see a kid playing a PSR 190 keyboard that he got from his aunt, trying to touch music, though the music is difficult to catch most of the time; for me… “Music is like a woman that deserves more time to tame.”

"The will to win, the desire to succeed, the urge to reach your full potential… these are the keys that will unlock the door to personal excellence." -Confucius

https://youtu.be/Tfl8SwUz390 Accidentally found a raw copy this audio, I can still remember how I wrote this, and since I can’t sing… an old bandmate helped me with this. It was 2010 if I’m not mistaken and there are 5 more that I can’t find in my backup files, I still wonder how it sounds like after arrangements.  

My only escape from the real world…

https://www.instagram.com/p/BkW3RfKHdRE7wCEG10fZfjXG2R9M8mqBnAk0fM0/

A Station

Never saw myself to setup something portable like this, it always reminds me of PSR-190 and its case that I use as a sleeping bag whenever the band needs to sleepover. I’m not quite good at what I’m trying to explore but what I love most is the feeling that I’m a part of a team and we play at…

Getting Android O (Android 8.0 Oreo) to Your Device

Make sure you do this before you start: Make sure that you already made a full backup of your device before the installation process to avoid regrets in case you brick your device; just take note that there are lots of things that might go wrong during the process from faulty USB wires to problems like OS-device incompatibility. Making a…

"Excellence is a continuous process and not an accident." -A. P. J. Abdul Kalam

"Deep observation, silence, and playing dumb… are skills that shows who are the people who can destroy you, those who loves to back stab, and the Cowan. They are the one who’s going gnash their teeth when the purging starts. You’ve been warned and we don’t want words like “We already told you” to come from our mouth." -Me

Cheap and Optimized Web Hosting?

Starting up a website is easy as what they say, they offer you a free click and drag platform without knowing that there are a lot of important features that you may need in the future, but it’s something that you need to pay for, and by that time, it’s going to be too late for you to realize it…

“To re-create yourself, you have to destroy yourselves first.” -Bindu Madhav Tata

Paying Bills Without Leaving Home

Paying the bills is one of the things that I hate as a part of adult life, you need to find time to do it as a part of your responsibility and you need to do it before the due comes. There are many things that we like and enjoy to do as a part of our responsibilities and paying…

"Life and death are one thread, the same line viewed from different sides." -Lao Tzu

"For the wise man looks into space and he knows there are no limited dimensions." -Lao Tzu

“There’s always be a time when you look for a coven… a place where the once forgotten and the misunderstood gathers around, and they’re the one who understands… others; are just blanks saying they did as well, but ask them if they saw death taking away someone's life as they stare straightly at them… then they’ll give you a piece…

1st Traffic

1st Traffic… 

There are times that you don’t know if it’s an overkill or you did a right choice.

"Man’s enemies are not demons, but human beings like himself." -Lao Tzu

A Leap

Approximately about 10 months ago, we started a discussion about how we wanted to do something that’s off our comfort zone, something that we wanted to do; but time and things like responsibilities and some other stuff keep on preventing these dreams to stay inside the box. Something that we can have fun doing it while having a profit from…

Look for a crazy person in the picture then you’ll find me. It’s been a crazy week must end with a crazy weekend… again, this post doesn’t have any sense, I just need to add some numbers in my google analytics…  “A drunk man’s words are a sober man’s thoughts.”~ Steve Fergosi *Credits to JP Mercado for the photos

Finally fixed some CSS bugs after a long period of time after my 1-year contract with pangalan.com… The test for a shared subdomain moo.com is running good so far and I’m satisfied with the speed somehow… Thinking of finishing a rough version of A Looser’s Handbook if time allows… then ahrgghhh some lots of things. This post doesn’t have any…

"life is the real video game, mine is always set in hardmode." allansucgang A great quote from the Kage…

Imagine a room or just a door that you can just open and time flashes back, then pick up your own musical instrument and jam with the people that plays the same riffs that I like. A room filled with music that tells stories like how I gain and loss most part of my life, stories of the firsts and…

Puppy Love – This Wild Life

https://open.spotify.com/track/54hQppUC4QP1SNPJTohpRx You know you never seem to mindWhen I show up late in this broke down car of mineTo pick you up and take you outWe make the best of our short timeAnd though it’s not enough you assure me that it’s fineWith windows down let’s go for a ride ‘Cause when I mess up, you never give up your…

There times when I go wherever my feet guides me and there are times that I can’t get where my mind tells me.

When things are not so clear and being invisible is impossible, everything’s can be fixed by a simple smoke screen… to cover the mess and to share peace by creating a soft chaos just to force peace out of it.

"With educated people, I suppose, punctuation is a matter of rule; with me it is a matter of feeling. But I must say I have a great respect for the semi-colon; it’s a useful little chap."' -Abraham Lincoln

It’s pretty much similar inside a gulag,wherein exploration is something that can be successful if you work hard to get out of the comfort zone.

"It is time to get drunk! So as not to be the martyred slaves of Time, get drunk; get drunk without stopping! On wine, on poetry, or on virtue, as you wish." -Charles Baudelaire

I’m Ready

https://open.spotify.com/track/4DLfqHLHPvaydm68bmNRA4 It’s another hangover morning when I checked my phone for some music till this one played and it feels like there’s a flash back around my favorite portion on of the song and it goes like …. “I wake up to find it’s anotherFour aspirin morning, and I dive inI put on the same clothes I wore yesterday.When did…

Kill The Messenger

https://open.spotify.com/track/16iK5ktul23ZwVHzeDRScR There are some sparks that needs to be controlled to stop immediately; it’s like a fire that burns after you enjoyed the heat or after you watch it how it lights up the dark. You ‘ll be amazed on how it glows and starts to warm up everything but once it’s gone… ashes will scatter everywhere after the rain pours;…

Running with the Keys

Before I Stick it In

It started with a simple “hi… how are you?” then the usual words followed like “I haven’t heard anything from you since then…” then followed by a lot of stories till…“come on let's meet up, I’m not doing anything”. There are a lot of amazing things about changes, things like age shaped her a lot wherein I can’t even recognize…

Better than Patch…

Some things that’s very difficult to understand sometimes.

"To be happy, we must not be too concerned with others." -Albert Camus

"The most important thing in communication is hearing what isn’t said." -Peter Drucker

I understand now that fighting against too much nicotine intake is… gonna be so messy.

UP  Fair Roots 2017

the song played above is A Beautiful Diversion by Franco It’s been years when I watched mixed bands playing passionately live on the stage, sharing the same theme to unite music lovers everywhere and to share their craft for us to make it as a part of some moments in our life (remember that thing happened then this song plays…

My 27th

Just enjoyed my weekend yesterday at my friend’s home, a home where I always find peace. We got drunk, played, eat and laugh so hard most of the day that we don’t care how the clock ticks. A piece of happiness that I can bring back to my quadrangle, something that will trigger a smile if it tickles my memory…

"Knowledge is knowing a tomato is a fruit; Wisdom is not putting it in a fruit salad." -Miles Kington

Souvenir

https://open.spotify.com/track/572JyJV4pu3RCuIYXb5wQS Think of a tiny postcard stamp… a stamp that’s so special, that you can’t forget the details of it even if it wears out…The image, year and color of it shows up in your mind whenever something brought it up again to your memory, most of the time, a scent or another picture which is so similar on how…

The Unpredictable

The scariest person ever… is the one who can predict each inch of movement you do…. that she can state something that you are about to say… wherein the only answer you can make is a quick nod with eyes that says a big  “yes…that’s exactly I wanna say or I’m thinking right now”. It leaves you powerless like a…

"It is always assumed by the empty-headed, who chatter about themselves for want of something better, that people who do not discuss their affairs openly must have something to hide." -Père Goriot by Honore de Balzac

One of the things some people don’t get… that being alone is like walking on an iced lake. Each step might be mishap… where you’re not sure if you’re stepping on a cube of strong ice or a thin one that may drown you inside that freezing body of water, and if you’re lucky to grab the ice edge, it’s…

"People who have a religion should be glad, for not everyone has the gift of believing in heavenly things. You don’t necessarily even have to be afraid of punishment after death; purgatory, hell, and heaven are things that a lot of people can’t accept, but still a religion, it doesn’t matter which, keeps a person on the right path. It…

"You can never cross the ocean until you have the courage to lose sight of the shore." -Christopher Columbus

A Quadrangle

There’s a sudden stark of silence after I insert the key and turn it to unlock the door for a private space with four corners. It’s a sign that it’s the end of another day, and there’s another one waiting after I took a rest and dark comes to wake me up. A place where no one’s waiting on the…

"Two antennas met on a roof, fell in love, and got married. The ceremony wasn’t much, but the reception was incredible!" -Darkspine509

Stubborn Love

https://open.spotify.com/track/7x46YkKAwp3yZpaa72n5Mu Just lying down and playing some songs with a story then… it says “She’ll tear a hole in you, the one you can’t repair” And some words then… “It’s better to feel pain, than nothing at all” And it’s just so funny that music talks in the most weirdest way possible… better than any friend, or persons that responds…

Each Time You Make a Wish

When hydrogen’s gone, and it starts fusing helium into carbon;When helium’s gone and the quantity is enough to fuse heavier elements Then cold comes and the core turns into iron. When it dropped because of its own gravity and can burn no more. When it heats up, for protons and electrons decided to be as one.Then the core shrinks to…

"The pain you have been feeling can’t compare to the joy that is coming." Romans 8:18

The Back Seat Driver’s Story

Once, this land was a paradise, a paradise that was even envied by animals from jungles from faraway lands; it was so perfect that even just the description of how great it was even reached overseas, wherein they even attempted to take it away from us a few times but they gave up… because we’re big and powerful? Nope… we’re…

The wait for sunrise is almost over, but the thoughts of the night still play like a slideshow of shadows. Cold air waiting to warm up as the tobacco smokes rises up. To breath and to reset the clock… and another wait for the sunset, a cycle that won’t end but may differ somehow each day; days must be filled…

"Sometimes, I need to seek for what they called the me time… just a special time with a bottle of beer and me time." -Me

"Sorrow and strife comes to all persons. Mature people expect hardships and setbacks and patiently and determinedly work to accomplish their goals. Immature people lash out in anger and frustration when circumstances conspire to blunt their short-term objectives." -Kilroy J. Oldster, Dead Toad Scrolls

Still can’t believe that a small bottle like this can do the tricks… lets the mind and time fly like a quick arrow to hit a dream somehow; to wash up some dirt that blurs up a vision, a feeling that there are some reasons to be happy somehow, small stupid things to make us laugh somehow. Well it was…

“To buy something that can’t be seen,touch,hear,smell and taste sounds funny for some people who have it… but soon as they misplace it, they’ll go to hell looking for it” -Me

"Sometimes writing is like playing with fire… like trying to tame an uncontrollable beast." -A.D. Posey

To differentiate the definition of  leftover and left-over

“When words went out and emptied your brain… And mind’s blank like a sheet of paper. Pick the lock and force the sackWords will come out like a broken water pipe”

Classy Girl

https://open.spotify.com/track/7kImuEvUQFbaLfx8f1JFBV Title: Classy GirlArtist: The LumineersAlbum: The Lumineers(Deluxe Edition) Well, she was standing in a barI said, “Hello, how do you do?”She handed me a beer with a kangaroo. She spoke of places I had never beenThat she had traveled toAnd we slow danced along, faster too And I made her laugh, I made a pass,I showed her my half…

“Sometimes human places, create inhuman monsters.” ― Stephen King, The Shining Credits to: allansucgang.tumblr.com for the image

Default Factory Settings

It’s been years and months now when the last time I cared too much about a person, when times were sunrise and sunsets are so vivid and skies are so clear and boundless…where heavy things become lighter, and each morning that I took a glimpse of her and all thoughts that run through the day is always about her… all…

Where Home Is

The time that I decided to say “I wanna go home”, I wanna go home? Where? When there’s no place you can say that I’m home and I want to sleep and eat with warm stories around. Where I can hear “finish your soup before it gets cold”, or perhaps phrases like “how’s your day?” then feeling of being safe…

When filtering dirty words isn’t easy… Photo credits to www.facebook.com/kiaprideparts

Still Life Sketch of the Last MusketeersImage brought to life by a pencil Credits to: allansucgang.tumblr.com

Same like patience when it’s busted… can be dangerous that it blinds the vision and forgiveness is impossible.

"One of the keys to happiness is a bad memory." -Rita Mae Brown

The First Principle

When one goes to Obaku temple in Kyoto he sees carved over the gate the words “The First Principle.” The letters are unusually large, and those who appreciate calligraphy always admire them as being a masterpiece. They were drawn by Kosen two hundred years ago. When the master drew them he did so on paper, from which workmen made the…

"Do not overrate what you have received, nor envy others. He who envies others does not obtain peace of mind." -Buddha

Could Have Been

https://open.spotify.com/track/4ZyGLln32NigFdtZci9JDp Title: Could Have BeenArtist: Jensen GomezAlbum: Umpisa Woah oh oh woah ohWoah oh oh woah ohWoah oh oh woah oh ooooohhhhWoah oh oh woah ohWoah oh oh woah ohWoah oh oh woah oh ooooohhhh Is this real?Are we perfectly sureof all the things that we feel?Are we moving awayfrom this shelter that we’re in tonight?Fighting tonight again..Are you gonna…

Thoughts Before Jumping

When you take things or met someone in a state that you’re not ready yet, mostly ends up into a fiasco; a lesson I learned some time ago… but sometimes, excitement is the biggest challenge that you need to kill first to avoid a trap like situation. I managed to almost master it when it comes to persons around me…

The Compass and a Ruler

I saw how they lead the familyI saw how they helpI saw how they live a lifeI saw how they love their craftI saw how they seek for the truthAnd enjoy the unity Someday… somehow… I wish that one day they’ll open their gates with a warm welcome But once I learned how to be a responsible person…And to find…

The Pasta isn’t Dull Before As I Remembered

The Key

            The moment I put the key in … and the loud mechanical assembly starts to rumble, and by stepping on the pedal to feed the engine with a rich blend of gasoline and octane; I knew, that it will be a start of a new expedition of my learning towards life. Others say they…

Epic 1st Gas Up & Parking Ticket

1st Parking Ticket 1st Gas Up

Some people wanted to own the sky, for others to sleep well at night… even for those spoiled brats who don’t deserve to live….

"We are made wise not by the recollection of our past, but by the responsibility for our future." -George Bernard Shaw

“You must take personal responsibility. You cannot change the circumstances, the seasons, or the wind, but you can change yourself. That is something you have charge of.” -Jim Rohn

"Who’s my happiness?’; my answer would be silence’; wherein silence, is the best answer that I can give, rather than explaining how God asked her stay where she belongs and the only mode of communication is through a marble stone." -Me

My 1st Engine

Cloudy Thoughts

Playing the Cassette Tape Backwards

Nights are longer and it’s getting colder, and the sun’s so timid, or maybe tired of showing everyday… To wish that time runs back, not a rerun, but a backward play mode; like a cassette tape that was being played backward to find the hidden backmasked message, vague but it gets clearer as you try to run it over and…

Just Remembering How I Started Learning How to Talk

What are you doing with that donkey?

When every day’s a bad day when everyone smiles and bursting with laughter, there I am, tryin’ to be one of them. When no one cares what tomorrow brings and what the hell the future holds, there I am again, tryin’ not to give a damn… They’re not scared, because they got this last line of this unbreakable happiness, a…

"When everything’s so tragic… There’s always a thing that we called magic." -Me

The Scent

A sour place tasted like tamarind and place where education continues to flourish, book-wise or streetwise. Someplace where lessons are learned and where the huge part of our great country’s history can be found. Place where life steals the innocence and no way that you can take it back. Mostly sunny and lake like when it’s rainy, and it’s heaven…

"The scariest part before starting a conversation is; to have an awkward feeling that you tried to avoid because you’re scared of sharing pages of your life till the last one." -Me

Urbandub Sound clinic

Title: Soul Searching By Urbandub The day that they cured my constipation in writing things that I want to express….

"If tears are unspoken emotions…. Then turn those tears into music…. In that way, it will be artistically beautiful…" -Me

Why a Poet?

Reasons why to fall in love with a poet? Uhmm… maybe because they’re immortal… they’re universal when they’re not physically around. They can be the air that you breathe that with five lines of phrases, it can draw a line of a small dots of happiness that’ll eventually turn into a dash and build a solid line across your heart.…

A Potato Story

Once… there’s peace in the kitchen, where every move needs rules and every action needs to follow a guideline. A set of bloody guidelines, compiled as a book, where actions out of the book is a crime. A crime that was declared by the judge, a judge… persuaded by a stereotypic way of thinking. A judge? Well, it’s us, humans……

The 2 Symmetrical Sides of a Plant

          To write a book? Everything about what? Uhm…. I don’t know. Words flying over the atmosphere; just jumbled words, scattered words waiting to become a phrase „, till it becomes a group of sentences; then finally a paragraph. Paragraph without sense? Maybe yes, maybe no; just to fill an empty page, a page without an assurance that it will…

"Do not worry about avoiding temptation. As you grow older it will avoid you." -Joey Adams

How I Wrote Her Lullaby

Processed with VSCOcam with x1 preset           I can still remember how I started to write this song; with a mind full of excitement and hope that it’s forever. To write a song that always reminds me how she sleeps, the scent that lingers around the room and the sound of silence that echoes inside my…

It’s Been so Cloudy Lately

Staring at the stars at night, worshiping how wonderful they are; without someone who agrees that, yes, they’re so beautiful indeed. Starting the day with a great cauldron of happiness and ends the day with a feeling of emptiness, and trying to gather scattered granules of happiness using a teaspoon that usually ends with frustration trying to find something; something…

To Walk Alone Knowing That There’s a Light Waiting for Me

Sticks & Pencil

Longest Day, Counting Blank Hours

Time is measured starting by seconds, minutes, and hours; but to measure fun with hours? It’s like measuring gogul of lightyears attaching to a max threshold of laughter’s unit in decibel’s. Weird way of creating a new formulation of the happiness equation that ends with a realization that happiness can’t be measured with time or proper environment settings. Something that…

Some Thoughts

Taking a simple stare at everything around me gives me a strong urge to improve my performance as a part of their team. Things like how they smile and burst out their loud laugh in every punchline; the way how they talk about funny experiences they had in the past, and how they show how much they care for each…

Bringing some of my lyrics to life, Though I don’t know if some people will like it;; It’s just a good thing that I don’t know how to sing and someone will sing it and will make  it more alive…. hehehe peace and Let Carry the Day roll on Will Sugarcane join us? I need to ask some of them…

Gray Hair

Imagine a lonely life, things like 40 years from now, sitting on a bench in a park, just waiting for the time to pass through; the sky is clear and all I have is just a piece of silence.  Just taking a glance around the peaceful environment and counting the years especially those wasted ones. Thoughts that suddenly popped out…

"Learn from the past, set vivid, detailed goals for the future, and live in the only moment of time over which you have any control: now." -Denis Waitley

"Shock is still fun. I won’t ever shut the door on it." -Nicolas Cage

Exploring about engines isn’t that easy, sometimes,, we need to bust out an engine before learning something from it.. uhmm especially if the unit is not mine.

There are times that I crave for more amount of knowledge or any kind of skills that can develop me more a person. Someone who can start something great, to create something that people will use as a part of their daily lives. More like dried grass, I don’t have that much deeper knowledge of everything, but to look up…

"My idea of good company is the company of clever, well-informed people who have a great deal of conversation; that is what I call good company." -Jane Austen

Sometimes… Silence can’t be found that easily, it packs a huge measure of chaos before we can hear it echoing inside our ears.

Sic Parvis Magna- “Greatness from Small Beginnings”

It seems like yesterday that I’m sitting on a chair in the lobby, when my heart pounds so fast, worrying too much if I can make it till the training stage or if I can pass through some series of interviews. It was cold…. while figuring out things like how to be one of them, or… how to be one…

Labor Omnia Vincit

Tomorrow’s the final day for the 2nd phase, considering the fact that I have a shaky way of communicating and technical things that I’m not a hundred percent sure of, I need to double my effort to make it right. Considering things that can waste my effort as a trainee, like my dead tone of speaking and stuttering problems when…

Instinct Got Me Home

It was before the night starts to take its shift… All details are classified, but to shorten up how it starts, we have a great dinner…ya hahaha that’s all First payout?  What am I planning to do?….. Well to get lost and get wasted in a way that I still know my way home,, and yup, oh yeah, it was…

Another Set

The 1st week of PST went fine though we have a different trainer for this phase and like myself who has 10 or 15 minutes late for the 1st day, is still working out a way to manage traveling time to be always on schedule. Drilled holes and tightened screws for a new kind of door, hehehe an American door…

Scientia ac Labore

Still can’t believe that I made it till the final day of FT; mixed up thoughts inside my mind kept me awake that night and as I try to get some sleep… images of things from the day that I’m somewhat kind of lost and almost giving up about everything keeps on poppin’. Imagining how I look and feel about…

What a Week

In between lectures, during some short breaks, spending the time to have some silence. Painting a vivid picture inside my mind, to draw a detailed description of how they smile and how they enjoy each conversation; laughing like nuts all the time. This is the way how I wanted my life to be. Deleting some of my gray pictured past…

To Be One of Them

After the medical exams, passing of basic requirements, contract signing and orientation, I finally have the chance to know people that I will be working with for the whole process and it is so exciting to unfold each one’s 1st layer of character,, and yeah,, ate is our trainer,,well I just want to call her ate but not in front…

If My Heart Was A House

https://soundcloud.com/owlcityofficial/6-if-my-heart-was-a-house **You’re the sky that I fell throughAnd I remember the view whenever I’m holding youThe sun hung from a stringLooking down on the world as it warmed over everythingChills run down my spine as our fingers entwineAnd your sighs harmonize with mineUnmistakably I can still feel your heartBeat fast when you dance with me We got older and I…

"The voice so filled with nostalgia that you could almost see the memories floating through the blue smoke, memories not only of music and joy and youth, but perhaps, of dreams. They listened to the music, each hearing it in his own way, feeling relaxed and a part of the music, a part of each other, and almost a part…

It’s like Talking to Ate that I haven’t Had

OK…. still11th of Feb. 2014, the sun starts to leave the sky and the next process still crucial for me. Still, a little bit scared even though after a written exam and I’m so lucky that  I passed that exam. I’m waiting for another interview and it was so funny how my imaginations are so far from the reality that…

It Started with a Single SMS

A single message that I won’t forget ever in my life, a single ticket for a ride to success, and the chance to rebuild and find happiness in my life. It was something that put a smile on my face whenever I will remember reading it, it was something important to me, something that motivated to start my first step.…

6 Months of Mind Wandering

6 months passed so quick that it seems like I’m just fixing a CPU unit having a network problem. I imagine myself doing the same routine sometimes when days are so lonely, when I feel that I’m becoming a useless person, I miss doing those stuff, but I need to move to a new level of my career path and…

"Knowledge is knowing a tomato is a fruit; Wisdom is not putting it in a fruit salad." -Miles Kington

A Freezing 1:20AM

Just woke up without any huge reason, it’s just maybe I can’t pinpoint one due to a lot of things inside my mind. All I can say right now that we talked about it and I need to trust her words; though it was somewhat difficult for me, having the fact that all radars went black and some things went…

"There is nothing more dreadful than the habit of doubt. Doubt separates people. It is a poison that disintegrates friendships and breaks up pleasant relations. It is a thorn that irritates and hurts; it is a sword that kills." -Buddha

"Don’t waste your life in doubts and fears: spend yourself on the work before you, well assured that the right performance of this hour’s duties will be the best preparation for the hours or ages that follow it." -Ralph Waldo Emerson

Some 1:21 AM Thoughts

I woke up after a vague dream, finding someone and I’m scared of losing her so completely. Made me think blankly for a while and as mind tried to fly away as I closed my eyes, all of the flashbacks just pops up that I don’t know why it hurts something like hell. “It’s not the first one, but this…

"Life is one big road with lots of signs. So when you riding through the ruts, don’t complicate your mind. Flee from hate, mischief and jealousy. Don’t bury your thoughts, put your vision to reality. Wake Up and Live!" -Bob Marley

Fairy Tale Things That I Thought That It Can be Applicable in Real World

I thought that it will be so easy, that I don’t need things that other people have to be a better person, and I just need me, to make it; just like the movies, an inspirational one. I didn’t realize that until I just woke up and panicked, “Oh, maybe it was too late” and start making plans so quickly…

Testing My Blog Site for the Final Run

Finally... After weeks of sleepless nights trying to restore and recovering entries from my old site, from changing platform to domain redirection, and from default template to my best latest design; I can say that I’m contented and happy that I made something nice about this page. Though I removed some tutorials, I’ll be posting a later version about anything…

I Don’t Know What the Hell is a Hardware Analyst

Hardware Analyst? Anyone please, hahahaha someone who analyzes hardware; just kidding. I saw this ad on the internet and there’s this feeling that this is the right job and the right time for me to have one. I’m excited to configure large computers for a large company that can test my mind in the most difficult and hell like pressure.…

I don’t know what was written in its pages, the cover picture seems to look nice and colorful. I don’t have any idea why she likes this book so much, I wish she can tell me something about it, even just the summary.  Too sad that she can’t, maybe Wikipedia can tell me something about it.

"Lost time is never found again." -Benjamin Franklin

Dogs can only understand dogs

This is Sykes, one of a kind dog who thought that she is a human being. 

When she smiles, and It’s Got Nothing to Do with Me.

Every time I check her picture whenever I’m online, and take a look of pictures when she’s smiling, whether it’s fake or not; something tells me that nahh… You have your chance but you blew it up. Yup, I blew it up and though I want to keep her so much, my mind keeps on asking me, “Why do I need…

"Christmas is a holiday that persecutes the lonely, the frayed, and the rejected." -Jimmy Cannon

I miss sharing stories in front of this fireplace whenever there are events in my grandpa’s place. This is my grandpa’s masterpiece and his most favorite part of his place. I wished that I can still visit this place without something that holds me back inside my mind

Woke Up One Day And Found Out that it was so Cold

I need to find something that can make more busy, that I can forget this shitty feeling once. It’s my fault, all my faults, getting into something that just wasted her time. Why am I so stubborn to face it, like I’m waiting for an answer that was already answered. Time can’t go back and it won’t even catch up…

Trying to recover my lost skills, starting from the basics…

A workplace that almost never sleeps, It doesn’t pay the bills, but it feeds a hungry mind….

"A man is not old until regrets take the place of dreams." -John Barrymore

Wish that I Can Still Call Her That…

I miss how we called each other “baby”, where’s that time goes; it was so quick and the worst feeling was, I didn’t do my best though I have the chance to show her how I feel inside. “It’s not the first time, but this one’s really carved in” Maybe she said it well, but I missed that part because…

A guitar restored from its unwanted doom,,, skully made a smile so I guess this guitar was made by a genius,,,  I almost forgot,,, I restored it…

It takes patience to be a parking lot responsible and it takes hell to be a racer, it’s just like life, Eeeeiiii can’t even explain.

"Of all the words of mice and men, the saddest are, “ It might have been." -Kurt Vonnegut

"We should consider every day lost on which we have not danced at least once. And we should call every truth false which was not accompanied by at least one laugh." -Friedrich Nietzsche

A serene place, a great place to think of anything that bothers the mind and find the answers at the end of the day. I’m thinking of someone who might love this place,

"The greatest mistake you can make in life is to be continually fearing you will make one." -Elbert Hubbard, The Note Book, 1927

A new place that I called “The Batcave”, it serves as my forward base as  I explore new things, to verify the known and to know the unknown. I want to answer most of my questions about the internet world,like how secured things inside and what secrets they keep that even the government won’t even try to know.

Every time I see these pictures, it says that I’m too far from being an average IQ leveled person, that I’m incompetent enough to sign up for these programs... 

Questions

Why did God let me find her if He knows that I have a lot of issues in life; that I might be just another annoyance for her. I didn’t even have the chance to have a whole day with her, a day that we can do everything that we want. Maybe this is what God wants to tell me;…

"I had a stick of CareFree gum, but it didn’t work. I felt pretty good while I was blowing that bubble, but as soon as the gum lost its flavor, I was back to pondering my mortality." -Mitch Hedberg

From stuck to wide exploration

"Exaggeration is truth that has lost its temper." -Khalil Gibran

Starting to Loose Hope, Starting to Be an Idiot

Still, don’t have a job, I’m waiting for the right timing. I’m starting to think that I’m an incompetent kind of person and I need to overcome this scary phase of my life. She texted me that she misses me and she loves me but what did I reply, something that might let gets angry, maybe hate me forever. I…

"A person needs at intervals to separate himself from family and companions and go to new places. He must go without his familiars in order to be open to influences, to change." -Katharine Butler Hathaway

A new friend, someone who can guard and bark even I talk too much shit

"If you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it’s not because they enjoy solitude. It’s because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them." -Jodi Picoult, My Sister’s Keeper

Packed up and ready to go… I don’t know what lies ahead but it will be my huge leap…

Chaotic Thoughts

I don’t know why I’m starting to think so different that whenever she’s going out with her friends or she wants to release stress and she needs to have a drink, I feel so jealous that I can’t think a bright side of it. I felt that even before but there was a border that I can’t cross that time,…

"Recession is when a neighbor loses his job. Depression is when you lose yours." -Ronald Reagan

As a new member of the team, I must give whatever skills needed for this project to prosper though I feel scared somehow coz’ I haven’t done this for a long time. Well, this will be the start of taking iphonenoypi.com to its shape.

Her Day. . .

Got so busy that I’m not the first one who greeted her a happy birthday, I hope that she can forgive me. I’m not even with her, I’m useless.

"It’s amazing how she can realize her own mistakes and correct it in just a speed of a light." -Me

"If everyone is moving forward together, then success takes care of itself." -Henry Ford

When nights got so lonely, that I wished that when she’s sad, It’s me, that can comfort her, in any words that I can express. Not just always over the phone.

The Power of Eraser

I was so amazed how the eraser can fix a malfunctioning RAM most of the time, even graphics card metal plated area. I often recommend clients to buy a new set RAM most of the time without having the first procedure… I, therefore, conclude that starting from the basic can save a lot of effort and resources.

"Believe in yourself! Have faith in your abilities! Without a humble but reasonable confidence in your own powers you cannot be successful or happy." -Norman Vincent Peale

A room full of papers on the wall, I hope that it can help me with my next step. I need to fix myself, and not only think of myself…

What If. . .

What if the electric current was back earlier that night, what if I’ve met her princess so many times before, what if the mood switches and we talked something kinky around the corner, what if I tried to speak out of my inner thoughts, what if I don’t have these issues in me along years before that it was easy…

The Night to Have. . .

After days of talking about the right time and after that crazy stuff that we have over the phone, kinky messages and phone calls; we’ve decided to have that night. She’s with her princess and I need to fetch them at the bus station and as I reached the station I tried to look around find them. I was so…

Tease

Something funny about me is, when she starts teasing me over the phone, I don’t usually respond to this kind of thing except when the person is in front of me; but I don’t know why does she have a voodoo power or it’s just me excited over her. Yup much but it’s not just that, there’s this part that…

"I’ve looked around enough to know that you’re the one I want to go through time with." -Jim Croce

Happiest Day of My Life

She finally said yes, though it was so unclear I can feel it clearly, but still, it sounds that I said something that might force her to say yes. Though it was over the phone, I felt it so much that I can’t explain how much happy I am, that everything was so colorful and every small noise around me…

"When you are courting a nice girl an hour seems like a second. When you sit on a red-hot cinder a second seems like an hour. That’s relativity." Albert Einstein

"I often forget where I put my keys, but when I put my hands on my pocket for the 3rd time,,, Oh stupid me.." -Me

First Happy Day in Milkfish City

At last, I experienced that someone cared for me, a person that I just met in just a few months, who made a way to visit me; even brought something for me. It was my happiest day, but it was also the most awkward moment in my life. Well honestly, it was my first time to have visitors and I’m…

A Dance, It’s not the Music that Leads but Her

I wish that the music won’t end, playing in a continuous loop that no one can ever stop it; or even if it was just a 4 minute song, I wish that the time slows down, slower that the speed of a heartbeat. It was a an unexpected invitation that night, though the place was far where she was. I…

A Night but Not just a Night

After the reception, we stopped by to where she was staying; she needs to prepare herself quickly due to a an unclear schedule. The management just suddenly insisted that she needs to report and take that her shit that night, (I forgot to tell that the restaurant shuts down but the inn business was still operating). She did have that…

"Only when inspired to go beyond consciousness by some extraordinary insight does beauty manifest unexpectedly." -Arthur Erickson

An Unforgettable Walk

The crazy chef invited us again and that was the night after the farewell party. I was not feeling well that night but after that person hug her before he started inviting her; I started to have some uncomfortable feeling, so I just stand still and went to the place with them, same place where the drama took place a…

"A man is born alone and dies alone; and he experiences the good and bad consequences of his karma alone; and he goes alone to hell or the Supreme abode." -Chanakya

Farewell Party

It was a Sunday night when she texted me because she’s not sure about attending the restaurant’s farewell party; either I because it seems that I’m not invited that time we spend time to decide whether to attend and I keep finding some excuse to attend because I knew that the management wanted her so badly that she needs to be…

Room Full of Chaos

Everybody was shocked, I don’t know if they will just close their restaurant business. It was a piece of scary news but we need to see what will happen next maybe they’re just planning it. It was a serious one. I might lose her forever; I don’t know her well enough.

Сумасшедший ночь-Crazy Night

Just after the long and stressful day, we just decided to have a drink; everything seems fine when the chef went nuts. He was one of the two, the other one was always with me at all times; well he didn’t control his emotions and that emotion was triggered by one of the clues he gave himself, a few months ago…

Scary Premonitions

The business was not going so well and every employee was going through a hell of flames. Often stressed due to lack of manpower, it this situation keeps going like this; there will be a time that most of us will give up and it was a scary thing that it might stop its operation but I still believe that…

My 23rd Year of Living

Another year of a scary reminder, but this time I have a plan of fixing my goals, goals that I’ve lost before. Well if I only knew that someone was a person like her then maybe I accomplished those things before. It has been just a funny feeling that I’m getting more concerned about how I can I get myself…

It’s Not Funny Anymore

She’s turning into a dried rose, her skin started to change like it was so dry and pale, her eyes were starting to look so deep that it seems like she’s not having a night of proper sleep. She can still smile but it was getting worse that I’m scared that she can’t pretend to smile anymore if she continues…

"Any girl can be glamorous. All you have to do is stand still and look stupid." -Hedy Lamarr

New Year’s Eve? I’m Bored

3 hours before New year and I’m getting bored, though I can celebrate thing alone, I don’t know anyone here in our neighborhood to do some stupid things with me like playing a practical prank anywhere. There is loud music everywhere, everyone was so happy and I’m here trying to entertain myself with a bottle of liquor and mixing party music…

Another Year to Celebrate Christmas with Workmates

This year’s party was something different, I can say that it was so great; something that I enjoyed it much than last year’s party. Maybe I made new friends and they’re cool about anything that we can laugh all night. I’m also happy to see that I finally printed my design on a shirt that I’m wearing. The greatest part…

https://open.spotify.com/track/0YFPHWf18xgfw86R4HMj8d My favorite part was the only last part “And there you wereI saw my Juliet come graceful down the stairsIt’s hard to miss the way her eyes light up the room and still the air Do you feel us falling? Cause I can feel us falling.Do you feel us falling? Cause I can feel us falling.Do you feel us…

FB Basic Cryptology

[[107015582669715]]  = A [[116067591741123]]  = B [[115602405121532]]  = C [[112542438763744]]  = D [[115430438474268]]  = E [[109225112442557]]  = F [[111532845537326]]  = G [[111356865552629]]  = H [[109294689102123]]  = I [[126362660720793]]  = J [[116651741681944]]  = K [[115807951764667]]  = L [[106596672714242]]  = M [[108634132504932]]  = N [[116564658357124]]  = O [[111669128857397]]  = P [[107061805996548]]  = Q [[106699962703083]]  = R [[115927268419031]]  = S [[112669162092780]]  = T…

This is the first shirt design that I tried to experiment, hope that I can print this one on a real shirt.

Demised

I noticed that every time I can’t help myself saying how beautiful she is, and she looks so great, there’s a part of her that she doesn’t believe that statement, that she often says it’s not true or any words that say I’m just trying to be nice to her. Well maybe she was fed up of those words from…

Another Day of Exploration

Just an experiment how to push the landlord’s Prolink router to its limit using a backtrack 5 OS, I wish that I can share more details about this one but it was something that I’ve without proper permission from the owner…

Yosimate

I decided to clear up my mind and tried not to be affected by things that are so scary to think of and as we have more conversations, I didn’t notice how I walked deeper in her world; having a thirst of wanting to know her more, and for the longest time that I haven’t had a deep conversation with…

Another Day at Work

Boredom strikes again and as the time flies away, and there are piles of dead hours to fill, music fills my ear and as the music fills my ear, something weird was going on inside of me, and it was something that I hate but I’m starting to love some changes that might make me better as a human. I…

Got Her Number, Maybe For Working Reasons

I forgot to include this one from my last log, and yup I got her number and I don’t know exactly what to do, maybe I’ll just face my fear of the unknown, I can say something mystical that I need to unfold, maybe. I started to send some generic messages and most of it is work-related matters. I tried…

Facing the Inevitable

So they brought me back to the main office due to the fact that the technician from the branch where I’m assigned was a total asshole; he was assigned to the main office months before but he screws it up so the management decides to do a swap, and it doesn’t sound nice, due to the fact that it was…

She’s Really Creepin’ Me Out

Whenever we submit our sales report; I just can’t stand to pretend that I don’t notice her, and the worst part was I’m affected on how she smiles and how she talks. “Someone’s trying to breach my force field without an intention; ” The funny part was I’m not even attracted to her but I keep on taking a glance…

"Beautiful music is the art of the prophets that can calm the agitations of the soul; it is one of the most magnificent and delightful presents God has given us." -Martin Luther

And this is how you unlock windows with passwords, Arrrggghhh people with amnesia

Something Weird

Someone new, working on my boss’s restaurant business just caught my attention, it feels like I saw her before especially when she turns back. Her back part seems so familiar and I don’t have any idea where I saw her, maybe this is what I get when I watch too many movies, characters are coming out from the screen to…

"I believe that if life gives you lemons, you should make lemonade… And try to find somebody whose life has given them vodka, and have a party." -Ron White

"Without music, life would be a mistake." -Friedrich Nietzsche

"One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain." -Bob Marley

"The living owe it to those who no longer can speak to tell their story for them." -Czesław Miłosz, The Issa Valley: A Novel

I’m Gonna Finish my Craft This Month if Possible

Finally did my first 8GB version and it started to work well though there are some major bugs going on, I hope that things will be just fine soon.

"To crawl the network within the office has no sense, but I just realized that it can be used for later." -Me

"To wake up without someone saying good morning, though she said goodnight." -Me

"If the facts don’t fit the theory, change the facts." -Albert Einstein

Finally got a new PC, now I can explore more with it writes things that I want to write and do things that I love to do, more powerful= fast password brute-forcing. 

Night at the Fish’s Lab

As I start to spend my time here in a place where I call “Milkfish City”; there is a particular flashback that I want to keep playing in my mind, a memory that won’t be ever be deleted inside of me. It was just a recent memory where we have a drinking session in a place where they study aquatic…

"If you treat every situation as a life and death matter, you’ll die a lot of times." -Dean Smith

My First Portable 500GB HDD, A 2.5 Seagate Expansion Drive

I love using flash drives with smaller storage capacities until I suddenly woke up and realized that I need to store tons of files, in just a single storage device, can portable as flash drives, fast data transfer rates and slim enough not worry about the space it can occupy. I picked Seagate for its good reputation and it’s not…

"There was something in her eyes that might be eased by giving her a good pleasure, let off your guard then let it be." -Me

"It takes considerable knowledge just to realize the extent of your own ignorance." -Thomas Sowell

"Do not anticipate trouble or worry about what may never happen. Keep in the sunlight." -Benjamin Franklin

Sometimes I daydream of it…

Still there lots of things to do, all I have to do is to pack, pack, pack, Now I can say that I’m a real packer. Quick packing = fast processing of RMA items. 

"You are remembered for the rules you break." -Douglas MacArthur

"The CR was so dark that her face lits up an 8 X 8 sq room, not minding the toilet bowl staring at us" -Me

Something like that, maybe when karma stroke me a lightning rod, I may re-allocate my brain bandwidth…

"I think it is all a matter of love; the more you love a memory the stronger and stranger it becomes." -Vladimir Nabokov

The first day of Work (“A Lucky Job”)

Walking along the famous session road, thinking blankly so I can evade the feeling of being scared and so lost after a failed interview from a company I expected that they might give me a chance to be part of their team. A totally strange place, strange culture, somewhat kind of things that I’m used to; sunny but it was…

"Music is everybody’s possession. It’s only publishers who think that people own it." -John Lennon

They Assigned Me to Another Workplace

Still adjusting after we move our main office from session road wherein after that they’ve assigned me to one of their branches, it’s funny coz’ experienced new clients and knows my workmates well wherein I can start also planning to make something that the technicians need to speed up their troubleshooting process. A single powerful USB flash drive where most…

“Sagaok” a dog who served us well, a brave dog who proved that size and count don’t matter when it comes to a fight; though I didn’t witness how you died, you're still one of the greatest dogs that I’ve known.

Paco, young but a fierce one; my uncles guard dog but love to sleep a lot while snoring. LOL, what a funny dog!!!!

It was so scary to think a life when I get old; things might be difficult to enjoy, scared to end up alone. So cold

"We keep moving forward, opening new doors, and doing new things, because we’re curious and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths." -Walt Disney

"One lives in the hope of becoming a memory." -Antonio Porchia

21st Birth Year

What a day of reminding myself to just give up, everything that has something to do with happiness. The fact that I survived to have just a few real friends and not knowing everything that runs inside my mind. Having a list of some fuckable bitches hidden inside a single SIM card was something not to be proud of; time…

"Silently, one by one, in the infinite meadows of heaven, Blossomed the lovely stars, the forget-me-nots of the angels." -Henry Wadsworth Longfellow, Evangeline: A Tale of Acadie

Secrets for Almost a Year

“There are no secrets that can’t be revealed” That’s what the old folks say, I’ll just keep these logs as a secret and see how many years it will remain as hidden. Maybe I can keep this one till my last page; yes I can, if, This platform won’t shut their system down... But I trust this platform and I…

Well I do, if I finally have the reason to tell the world how grateful I am with her… But still don’t even have a stroke of luck, maybe she’s out there waiting for me while I also wait for her to show up that’s why I spent so many times of ending up with some bitches…

"People gather bundles of sticks to build bridges they never cross." -Anonymous

"Suicide is man’s way of telling God, ‘You can’t fire me - I quit." -Bill Maher

"You cannot be lonely if you like the person you’re alone with." -Wayne Dyer

Two of my grandpa’s handmade miniature native houses, I wish that I have the skill like that, but I can’t even design a simple cabinet but I’m still interested to learn this kind of art someday.

Human Instincts

It was so cold and there’s something wrong about the wind or it might be a result of my own imagination as she started to stare at me, oh come on, you just triggered my subject lock button; a prey in my eyes. Nice talk, sweet smiles, pretending that I’m listening, and as the nights go deeper a change of…

When I’m bored and got no fun things to do, just expressing myself just to pass quiet dead days.

https://youtu.be/i5Ejbw1GhW4

When loneliness strikes and thoughts were just so cruel that the only one to blame was my own self. It has been just so scary to think about what tomorrow brings. I wished that didn’t screw up school, but it was too late; maybe I’ll just find a way to disappear as I prove that I’m not just a trash…

Grandpa made this for grandma, he loves her too much that he made this wheeled cart for her not to have difficulties in transporting some rabbits to the marketplace and after a  day of helping him make this, I left him staring while he smiles.

"It is strange to be known so universally and yet to be so lonely." -Albert Einstein

The epic marketplace, it didn’t change much, as I view it from my favorite point of sightseeing.

The Coffee Maker

An hourglass… Yup, it looks like an hourglass to me as I observe the hot liquid coffee mixture slowly dripping down to another container. I was just like waiting for something that you need to start a day, slowly but if you put the best coffee bean, it was something great and worth to wait. Maybe life was something like…

My brother, we always fight from the moment he was born, we almost kill each other most of the time; having so many different principles in life, like how we handle thing on our own ways. He has a hard time adjusting to my terms and so as me, everything was so opposite, but the great thing was, we can…

A place where I stayed and spent my whole high school years, there’s no place like grandpa’s place; though I’m the worst stupid person living with them, he’s the one who can still say that I can race against the time if I could only give my best. “Don’t take anything for granted, you must love your craft and success…

Just a clip that I uploaded on YouTube that caught some attention from different parts of the globe. It has been just funny to think that this stupid clip can get some views & comments; well this is one of a lot of situations that can’t be answered by those scientists who are studying human behavior. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hWENd-4DrUE

 "Keys to calm my mind, still scared of what tomorrow can bring; No exact notes, measures, or any scales,,, just the right rhythm and the right mood… Oh please give me a reason to smile.“

"He who learns but does not think, is lost! He who thinks but does not learn is in great danger." -Confucius 

And that’s a huge difference taking the risk for the 2nd time, to prove something that doesn’t even have a sense but can become handy in the future.

20th Anniversary of My Life

Just another day to remember how things are not so good, that time can leave me without giving me a chance to get up and may improve some things. I wish that someone’s out there, that can listen to my stories and all some nonsense issues I have. Maybe someone who replies or even say some words that can be…

A shovel and some loose soil, one day I’ll be under it; and it says don’t you worry I’ll be gentle.

Yeah… Bitches always find a way to trash anyone who can’t be played, they even have the stupidest made up reason to ditch someone…

"Troubles are a lot like people - they grow bigger if you nurse them." -Anonymous

"Wine is constant proof that God loves us and loves to see us happy." -Benjamin Franklin

Playing Call of Duty 4 MW, the story was so great and I can tell it for the first 40 minutes of the game. Merry Christmas everyone; gonna play this game till morning; I just want to finish the story, an interactive one.

Everything was great, though this video doesn’t have great quality, it was something that reminds how we work as a team and how fun to do something great for God. We are not just bandmates, we are God’s musical ministry; someone who plays music with a deep love for God. https://youtu.be/6oD3rpgQCeA

A Place with Real People

Every day, before the sun sets down; I often spend the time sharing thoughts with those real people I’ve known even for just a short span of time. They talk real problems, they laugh with eyes telling me that life was not that too bad and before I sleep,  I can say that they’ve saved me from those people who…

I found out that there are Filipinos out there still believes in Lenin’s principle and practice Marxism.

I just wonder what does this book keep, the title says like it has something to do with how can we appreciate art in the right way, or maybe just introduction on how to start appreciating any kind of arts.

Even a monkey,, or me

Hammer & Strings

https://open.spotify.com/track/3tCXkho2JrhnYygrSMgKyH This one sounds like my life “To those sleepless, this is my reply, I’ll write you a lullaby” Hammer & Strings by Jack’s Mannequin

"Long hair, great eyes, heat strikes again followed by a shaking elevator,,, hmmm I wonder what’s happening inside,,ooops I’m inside,,,ahhh love this place at this part of the night." -Me

"Get your facts first, then you can distort them as you please." -Mark Twain

Using our band’s first guitar from high school handed down to me, just trying to make a 5 track song for Paula… I got ditched after a few months maybe I was destined to be just a person whom someone will be with before they found the right person to their life…

It Might be Noisy, But a Good One

It was crushed and still, it makes a noise; Still a good conductor of electricity, Empty but can be filled with any liquid, Can be found anywhere, Reflects light when polished, Can float even with a deep body of water… Lastly, it was just called a “Can”; even though they put any descriptive words before that word, a positive or…

Starting to Learn More Deeper

An old board, something to remind us how some old PC works before; enable for us to appreciate what we have today, observing how fast our PCs can be or how much it served us more efficient in a cooler and power saving way. Today I’m going to test an ECS K7S5A motherboard having a 462 CPU socket and a DDR266/200 DDR SDRAM…

Looking at this old wheelbarrow, as flashbacks keep on popping’ out every time I want to sleep; thinking that what if I have some sort of like this inside my system, something that can help me carry most of my burdens, then I found out, that It’s not something, but it’s someone, called by people with different names and made…

"The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing… not healing, not curing… that is a friend who cares." -Henri Nouwen

Nope, why would they buy a rubbish piece of story…

My tracing tube’s plug, it was something that reminds me of my ancestor’s pride, “The Rice God”.

What a great emblem, something that made me proud of my culture…

Yup but it was a safe kind of life!!!

"If you look for truth, you may find comfort in the end; if you look for comfort you will not get either comfort or truth only soft soap and wishful thinking to begin, and in the end, despair." -C. S. Lewis

It was fun to learn things like this, how this thing balances each sound from the input. I wish that people also have like this in any group that they’re in wherein all are balanced, no one was so dominant, and no one was so recessive; I just believe that a group of people having a balance within that group…

My Page, My Thoughts

First time to share some thoughts, I can’t write perfectly, but I just want to express something about anything that this cruel world gives me… So this is my “Hello World” post, scared but I don’t care :)