Taking a simple stare at everything around me gives me a strong urge to improve my performance as a part of their team. Things like how they smile and burst out their loud laugh in every punchline; the way how they talk about funny experiences they had in the past, and how they show how much they care for each one, and that’s without a barrier„ I can say that I wanna be a part of them. Every day seems like a good day, making ways to make the day lighter, wherein every time I close my eyes as I sleep, laughter resounds inside my head like music, making pictures like motioned slides having full detailed pixels in every breath; more like dreaming but this is how I wish my life would be„, to spend time with cool people with different specs but with big similarities on how they wanted to spend their life each day.
Taking life simpler, facing it without making things so complicated, and having a rough draft of something that others called a goal. Something like„ at least I have something that I can be proud of, without too much thinking of comparing myself and trying to be someone else„ something that I can brag about myself that this is me, weird and not that perfect, but I can say that I am me and I’m starting to build up my confidence without any fears of they might not accept me as a different kind of person. All things might seem so upside down for me or something that I can describe like. ..Ow„,ahm I can’ really describe it as of today but all I know is I have a rough drawing of something that can help me to improve myself.
Most people that I knew of, having the same job as me, or even those who have a successful career tends to inquire about my income in this business and mostly compare theirs from mine„ showing that they got more than I have right now„ don’t even get the part wherein „yes„ they got the resources but they don’t have the persons that I have right now„ cool people that can accept me as me.; something that can’t be replaced by anything or any amount. Seems like I just got out of the gulag, wherein new things are so much exciting for me, everything’s a first time again and having a strong drive to recreate myself „well thanks for those who believed that I can do this somehow even if will take me more time to process some things. A new happy feeling about the environment? Strange but I love how it works out for me so far wherein every minute counts as a part of the construction of my own happy memories that I really like to keep.
Things might not run good so perfectly„ but the most important part is…. Life’s not too bad after all and I’m learning as time goes by.