A single message that I won’t forget ever in my life, a single ticket for a ride to success, and the chance to rebuild and find happiness in my life. It was something that put a smile on my face whenever I will remember reading it, it was something important to me, something that motivated to start my first step.
I’m standing right in front of a building, a place where I need to begin my first step to my own improvement, the exact place where the message instructed me to present myself 3 days ago. Nervous but determined, still can’t find the strength to storm inside and the best solution is to think blankly and face everything that approaches me.
It is a small office room with a small group of personnel, and after I submitted my papers, I was transferred to a smaller room to wait. There are a few numbers of applicants inside finding different ways to strike a conversation as we wait for our names to be called out; having different experiences and stories, and coming from different places, we all have the same goal, to have a job before the end of the day. Though I have a not that good and not that bad experience about companies that gather applicant to send them to other companies that need applicants (manpower agencies), I need to think positively and move forward.
Hours passed before they started calling us one by one, time flows so slowly where sweat froze like powdered ice under the skin. Heartbeats fast like there’s something that wants to free from the rib cage and as they started to ask me about myself, silence spread through the thin air, trying to spit out the first word but words dropped me like a hot potato. Few seconds passed before I start to reply, careful enough to pronounce every word and cautious enough not to mumble, I can say that it flowed just fine based on the male interviewer’s facial reaction. Though he stared at me like there’s no chance that I can’t get the job that I’m just wasting his time, I tried my best to answer each question except for the last one. It’s not really a question but it was something like how do I instruct someone how to reformat a Windows-based PC and puff, I’m all over the place, filler killed my chance. A verdict was served, “I’m screwed”, I whispered, but another hope popped up after the coach told us that we still have a chance to get a job to another company, that the next interview will start after 30 minutes.
Smoking outside, checking myself if I can still continue this thing as questions like am I designed to join this kind of industry? things like, there must be wrong on how I speak and maybe I should stop my dream of having the power to communicate and share thoughts or chunks of information to any person that I need to speak with. “Stop making excuses, find the right solution, be a part of something huge”, phrases that I constructed to motivate myself. I have 15 minutes more and still, I’m not sure of what will happen to me next and still, time flows so slow like everything moves in a slowed down dimension, “stand up and nail it”, words that I keep on repeating inside my mind.
Minutes passed and I still feel the coldness under my skin, breathing became so difficult and confidence was having its attempt to escape. Everything went fine after we entered the room, I forget every negative thought that I have some moments ago, the interviewer smiled and told us not to be scared, that every word was so pure and it helped me to be focused on will I sell myself to be a part of their company. The interview was so different and exciting, there is no question, just a simple instruction after, and it is to pair ourselves and tell something about interesting to the partner that we’ve picked then introduce him/her in front of everyone. It worked well with me, that I’m not aware how long that I’m speaking in front. After a few minutes, everyone was done and I can’t believe what happened next. I got it, she gave me a chance, she said that I just need to speak louder and more lively and do my best for the next interview that will be processed at their cyberpark site. I know that it will be a long busy day for me and I will experience more of the challenging part before the day ends, pushing myself to exert more, having a smile on my face whispering, “thanks Ms. Laura for believing that I can be a part of H”, and it keeps resounding inside my mind as I enter the shuttle that will give us the ride for the next process of getting a job.
As the van keeps on avoiding roads having heavy traffic, the driver dropped us to another building along Q. Ave. to have another initial interview from another company, it’s just to give us another option if we fail to pass the next process in H or if we want to choose another path. I’m not interested to have that interview because, for me, I found a path that gave me the feeling that I can do better and honestly, it was the first one who showed me that they believed in me, though it was Ms. Laura who gave me the chance, she’s a part of H and she was talking on behalf of the whole H. So back to the interview, we entered the room and another interview starts, and everyone was so nervous. They asked some couple of questions and after that, only two of us passed that process and they asked us to report in their Shaw Blvd. site. Well it feels good to pass that interview but my mindset was, still to work for the one who gave me the chance first, and I believe that I have built the confidence to answer interviewer’s every question from TP because I felt that I can do better, and it was because of my first interview from H. We reach Libis and the sun’s slowly setting down. I can feel that I will face more challenges but I have this thought that, if they let me in, I will do my best to prove that they’re right of choosing me to be a part of their company.
The day is not yet finished, and as I run my thoughts inside my mind while sitting on a chair in the lobby, I must say that “I am ready”. Though thoughts were written like groups of random phrases, all I want to say is, this will be the starting point of an exciting journey of my life.