I need to find something that can make more busy, that I can forget this shitty feeling once. It’s my fault, all my faults, getting into something that just wasted her time. Why am I so stubborn to face it, like I’m waiting for an answer that was already answered.
Time can’t go back and it won’t even catch up with me; it’s me who must catch up with the time and I have the chance, I wish that I can stop it once, for a moment to breathe and think. Thinking that I don’t need liquor to face some things, I can say that I upgraded from that phase in life.
I remembered that I prayed once before and I said,“God if you can make me happy once, even it was just temporary”; now it’s just me who enjoyed it much, even though God says “time’s over you got your request, next favor please”.
This is me pushes away everything, maybe that’s what the curse was trying to say, How can I forget that curse.