After days of talking about the right time and after that crazy stuff that we have over the phone, kinky messages and phone calls; we’ve decided to have that night.
She’s with her princess and I need to fetch them at the bus station and as I reached the station I tried to look around find them. I was so amazed at what I saw; she turned around an she was like a glowing angel and as she started to smile, I paused for a few seconds. She was so stunningly beautiful that night, I can’t even find words to ask if they’re still fine after a few hours on the bus.
We reached the place where I stay and it was so dark due to a power interruption problem. I hate what it’s like that night because I didn’t prepare for a candle or anything that can light up my room; I was so stupid to think that the electric current will be back soon and unfortunately it wasn’t. So we talk a little and I can’t think of any topic to talk to, I can’t even have some sweet time with her, I’m scared of what her princess might see and she might react against me; she was not just a kid as I wrote about her here before. So I went outside to get anything or something to help us let the time pass. I’m still nervous about what to do, and I’m careful of what I’m doing or saying, and I don’t like the kid to lose her innocent way of thinking.
Her princess was also sick that time and she has a mild fever, and I started to get panicked in my mind, “nope this is not the right time, it’s not a responsible way of thinking if I think of myself first then her, someday she will be a part of me and better start thinking like a responsible adult”, I can’t do this to her, and the fact that she’s still not asleep and she’s not used to being with me, I don’t want that she sees her mom with me like a rushing couple without minding that she’s around.
That’s the first time that I saw apple to show her mom’s instinct she knows what to do. I learned some things over the internet but still, it’s not enough what’s the best for her princess. It feels so strange, it feels like I’m so immature to handle things like that and the fact that the light’s still out and the fan won’t work without it, she can’t sleep because it’s getting hot.
I can’t even talk to her about what we planned earlier, the whole night was filled with dead air that all I can say was all nonsense topics. I was thinking of what if I’ll drag her and make it quickly on the dark side of the lavatory area; it will be an adventure but nope, I won’t just do that because I can’t control myself, I still respect them, she and her princess.
The current’s back and we’re tired of waiting, It didn’t end as I expected but it was something memorable that I can say at least I experienced one of the best night I ever have with them. I wish that I can spend a day with them someday where everything was fun.