It was a Sunday night when she texted me because she’s not sure about attending the restaurant’s farewell party; either I because it seems that I’m not invited that time we spend time to decide whether to attend and I keep finding some excuse to attend because I knew that the management wanted her so badly that she needs to be there and I need to make sure that she’ll be in a good condition so I desperately ride on a taxi and went there. The night was calm but it everyone feels so tense even me; I’m thinking that it will be the last night that I can see her, the last night that I can see her smile and I’m starting to feel so sad deep inside while pretending that it will be just fine. We enjoyed that night as we began drinking; everyone lets their best jokes out, and everyone was trying to make that night so special.
As time flies, I noticed that she’s starting to receive calls and started crying in the corner. I don’t know who was that person calling but I know that it was something serious that it was very very sad news. She was so broken and lost but still trying to fight against it, she still pretends that she was still alright; she’s always the same, she never changed, she always tricks herself that she’s always fine though it was so far away from reality. It’s not good anymore, look at her she was so lost, I told myself; I ask for my last favor to a friend, who happens to be an overlord as other people call him, I need a log but it wasn’t recorded in the trace was from a familiar number from her phonebook. It was him, the one she was crazy in love with, though she’s trying to say that she doesn’t enjoy most of her time with him, I know that she loved him, based from her patterns and pieces of just facts but it was something forbidden (Whatever their situation is, it must stay inside the circle; let’s just say that I’m just curious and found some pieces, I just can’t stand to watch her like that). Though I knew about some it months before, I kept it from her, I’m not a stalker or anything, I just know maybe someone who can give answers to my kind of questions and it was something that must be inside the circle; well-burned papers of it as a respect of her privacy.
So let’s get back to where we are; Ahm yup she was crying, and I can feel the pain but still I can’t do anything about it and why do I still need to pretend, and why do I need to be so careful when it comes to her that I need to discipline myself from making things that might worsen her situation. The boss starts teasing so as her workmates, and me, nothing, still pretending that I don’t care, sometimes I wished that they don’t care about me or about her when it comes with the personal stuff. Well, that’s the way how they function so I just need to understand, I feel like I’m just a useless fu***n’ person without the guts to stand up and show her how I care; stood up like nothing was happening, Oh I hate it. Fortunately, we end that night nicely and guessing what will happen next tomorrow, so we cleaned up and call it a night.
It was early morning when we woke up and for me, I prepared myself to get to work because it was already Monday and though I’m having a little headache I know that I can still manage to do my tasks as a technician. Hours passed and they were assigned to clean the restaurant and as I went upstairs everyone was so tired, they didn’t have a nice rest, and she, …… And she was,…… She was still there trying hard to complete the task though she was so pale that anytime she can just pass out in the kitchen. I wanted to yell anything just to express my dismay because it was too much, it has been. I can still manage to help because I rested well yesterday but how about them, they’re exhausted, they were working since yesterday.
The most breaking part was, the situation that I saw crying in the kitchen and I can’t just give her a hug because of that fu***ng CCTV camera.!!!! That’s all I have to do was to pretend that everything was still alright. Even after our shift, I saw her outside as they wait for the management to give them what they deserve to get but still there are some issues that they have a hard time asking for what they must get. Still, I don’t know what to do.
So just to forget what happened that I know it will be difficult for them, We decided to have a drink just to end the night…