This year’s party was something different, I can say that it was so great; something that I enjoyed it much than last year’s party. Maybe I made new friends and they’re cool about anything that we can laugh all night. I’m also happy to see that I finally printed my design on a shirt that I’m wearing. The greatest part of that night was not the food, the place, the booze, or any other things that night; it was her she caught my attention that made me feel so I don’t know, it was something about a complete happy undefined feeling.
She fixed herself after her shift and after we prepared the things we need to start the party, she went out that all I wanna do was to stare at her. Her scent was so seductive that I almost blew my mind off, as I look so attentively at her red lips while she’s speaking. I almost can’t stop that thinking of her that night that I tried to divert my attention away so hard while my body heats up, that I almost can’t control it. Thank God I still have fear, and it was boss; there are things that might make this entry long if I’ll try to explain why I’m scared of them.
And as we sneak out just to have a puff of some cigarette, it was getting stronger. All I have in mind was so dirty that I love to sniff secretly so she won’t notice it, and not to make an awkward moment. God, she smells so good that I can’t even forget how it smells like, and as she puffed her cigarette, I have a strong urge to kiss her so hard that I don’t care if I’ll die of asphyxiation and one more thing I can feel the heat of her body due to the fact that it was cold outside. She has a sexy outfit that night, it was simple but it was like it turned me on wherein she has a great shape that night, her jeans were so tight that if she’ll let me unzip it, I might do it so slowly like opening a carefully wrapped gift. I want to touch it, play with it with my finger first as she moans hard before I totally unzip it. She has an almost see-through blouse that teases me to grab her two boobs and start sucking her nipple, or maybe play those while I kiss her so hard. Then start to stick my finger to her meaty cave, twisting it hard till it starts dripping its sweet juices as kiss her neck so hard. I’m going to tease her cave’s lips by rubbing it from its border, till she begs for more. Everything played so well inside my mind till someone interrupted me Oh yup we need to get back; It’s rude also that I didn’t hear what she’s talking about, Oh I hope that she didn’t notice that I’m stunned and sweating.
I believe that it was not just a fantasy or a strong feeling of lust; either drunk because we didn’t start having liquor that time, I believe that it was a strong urge to meet her soul, and urge of creating a connection between us. Yep I know it was wrong and I forgot how to respect her inside my mind. Overall I controlled it and I successfully did it, Somehow I didn’t feel that I am like a dog drooling for something, This might be one of the strange things that happen during cold seasons. We have fun that night though I ended up having something shitty in my abdomen, a full blast of energy that contained due to proper obedience of the law. Oh I almost forgot, she had a bad night at that time because of her camera, I’m done fixing it. Great night though it just played inside my mind, I spent my whole time getting a glimpse of her which though there’s no sense in taking glimpse like that. At least I have controlled my own monster inside, and that makes me a human, I guess