Boredom strikes again and as the time flies away, and there are piles of dead hours to fill, music fills my ear and as the music fills my ear, something weird was going on inside of me, and it was something that I hate but I’m starting to love some changes that might make me better as a human.
I just can’t accept those kinds of changes, and without it, I can say that I’m safe, safe from everything that can drag me to hell again. Well it’s something like I’m debugging myself this time but my IDE can’t even help me to recalibrate myself; it works like a worm breaching a 5 tier firewall. Maybe I’ll just try to forget how she looks like and pretend that I didn’t notice any part of her inside my own Venn diagram though it feels like it was something impossible. Maybe I’ll just look at her in a very technical way, something that won’t even attract me, just making a way to find some not so good sides of her, but the problem was, even if I start… It was something that makes me appreciate her more wherein I just find myself asking what does she have that I can’t evade her. She’s chubby, doesn’t have a standard shape, she’s funny when she smokes (though I know it was my fault) and lastly I have a strong thing for slim women that made her someone not even my type of girl. Well, I hope that everything will be fine as time travels by though there’s something that bothers me… I feel like she’s someone that I’m looking for, but without any reason
“The more I argue with myself, the strangest feelings I get ”
It was I, bored from the same old shits or it was another page that I shall preserve for a long time.